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If I'm Not the Same

by The Moss Farm

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Will you still love me If I'm not the same? I feel so hopeless In this tidal
2.
Tidal Wave 02:45
I've gone and second-guessed it all again Every single day just feels like it's the same day Am I alone or are you there? I'm overthrown by this despair Will you still love me if I'm not the same? I feel so hopeless in this tidal wave And I'm suffocated by the bedroom walls All the air is thick with tears and aerosols Is it okay to be this scared? I'm overthrown by this despair Will you still love me if I'm not the same? I feel so hopeless in this tidal wave And if the lights go out will you still know my name? I'm just so messed up by this tidal wave I've gone and second-guessed it all again
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Sewing Pin 03:25
Another day, another night, and then another day It's all the same How have you been? What have you done? Oh, I heard your voice from several miles away When I was walking yesterday Oh Samuel what have we become I'm glad you're doing well There's not a lot of things to tell you Well I just wake up and mope around the place You sound so different through the speakers And your picture's kind of pixellated But I'm just so glad to see your face And I feel invincible right now But sometimes I get the feeling that I might not be alright When it's seeming like my mind is overgrown Won't you come and take me home Sing to me oh sympathy I'm just out for security A future I know I can ascertain Oh cos' twenty-five years later We'll be losing all our hair I'm just so scared I won't survive the hurricane Maybe it's the alcohol Or maybe its the lack of serotonin getting to my brain today While the pills are doing nothing, I'm afraid of feeling something Like a sewing pin against my arm again And I feel incapable right now but sometimes I get the feeling that I might just be alright But still, it's seeming like my mind is overgrown Won't you come and take me home So I'll shut the lid and sign out for the night And see you soon As difficult as this may seem, I'm pretty sure I'm nothing without you Another day, another night, and then another day It's all the same
4.
I Walk Alone 04:09
Pick me up and scoop out all the stuff I wish I didn't even have I must admit, I didn't think I'd make it out of this alive I guess I'm glad And I'm trying not to drink so I don't have to think About the things I don't tell Dad But I gotta go, I've gotta get back Seemingly I've got a lot of people I can talk to but I don't know how I sing a lullaby to help you go to sleep and then I fall and hit the ground I need the little lights, they're hanging from the blinds The batteries are running out And the silhouette against the wall shouts I walk alone I walk alone I walk alone Pick me up and wipe out all the stuff I wish I'd never even said I'm sick to death of hearing voices that I've never known before inside my head And the sentence that I thought I'd left behind is coming back I think I'm better dead Cos' the silhouette against the wall said so I walk alone I walk alone I walk alone Will you stay? Will you love me if I'm not the same? Every day I'm forgetting what I shouldn't say I walk alone I walk alone I walk alone
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I saw your face Out underneath the moonlight Just waiting for the day to replace it By the brook Oh, to see the world through your eyes Well what a perfect way to look And all your friends They teach you how to play nice Oh I can't wait to see you run again But do you feel alone When I'm not at home? I've got a hunch That it's gonna be okay Sometimes life gets in the way We're having fun Let's go outside I could throw it through the clothes line You be the seeker, it's my turn to hide And you're so in touch with it You're standing up, I'm kneeling We're dancing on the ceiling God I love you And I hear it when you're scratching at the door At seven-thirty in the morning And you're hoping I might pick you up And put you on the bed You're all I have
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Momma got lonely the first time her daughter decided to fly from the nest They packed up a suitcase with all of her things And she went to find home in the west Through twinkling eyes and reluctant goodbyes She just held her and tried not to cry Then left without light, driving out through the night She got lost like a wave to the tide But don't be afraid You won't have to go through this alone We're all just walking each other home Well Betty got sick, so he helped her get better She wore the red sweater to bed They laughed about laying on concrete and falling asleep But she stayed there instead She woke to find all sorts of scars across both of his arms As the light trickled through But he held her so tightly and said "I don't know what I'd be if I hadn't found you" So don't be afraid You won't have to go through this alone We're all just walking each other home David is waiting for Dad to come home He stands open-armed by the gates He longs for his mother, though so terrified That she might not remember his face Well I know it gets hard when the years are so long And you feel overthrown by despair I'm not sure if the sky is just vapour and air But I know that they'll look for you there And brother I promise you won't spend forever alone We're all just walking each other home We're all just walking each other home

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100% of album sales for this pay-what-you-want EP will be donated to Black Lives Matter.

Hi friends, thanks for being here! This EP was written and recorded in my bedroom over the period of the first nationwide lockdown here in the UK. It touches on feelings of hopelessness, anxiety and despair, but also unity, friendship and love. I suppose it's very much a representation of how we've all been feeling in these uncertain and bizarre times. I hope that this little collection of songs can bring you some sort of happiness and respite (if you should so need it!), and also that you might connect with some of the things I'm saying and feeling in these songs.

More than anything else, I hope that this message finds you well! Wherever you are, whoever you are, whatever your situation is right now, please know that you are so important and the world would be far less complete without you! Keep on keeping on and stay safe everyone. Thanks for listening!

Love you,
TMF <3

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released November 27, 2020

Album artwork by Martha Harris
Banjo on 'Sewing Pin' performed by Josef Weikert
Additional vocals on 'I Walk Alone' and 'Maggie's Song' performed by Lazygirl
Bass on 'We're All Just Walking Each Other Home' performed by Jensyn

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